Fighting Your Demons...

The word "demon" comes from the Greek word "daimon". 

Since Christ, it carries a negative connotation to an idea revolving around a dark force that possesses a place or a person.

Ain't we all have similar experience? Some dark moments that held us captive. Some dark past that creep out from nowhere to haunt us.Some ideas, some thoughts, some voices in our head that tell us that we are not going to fulfill our destiny. A spirit of fear that grips our heart, paralyzing us from head downwards, causing us to stop dreaming, stop walking and stop reaching our destine goals.

"For we wrestle not against flesh and blood,

but against principalities,

against powers,

against the rulers of the darkness of this world,

against spiritual wickedness in high places."

~ Ephesians 6:12 (King James Version)

Perhaps we are all trying to fight off our demons. Sometimes it seems impossible to overcome. But as long as we are still fighting, good always triumph over evil. Even Goliath can be brought down by a stone.

"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear;

but of power,

and of love,

and of a sound mind."

~ 2 Timothy 1:7 (King James Version)

Sometimes the fight seems to go on for so long, sometimes we feel so tired. But as we stop and think it through, most of the time our answers are right there in front of us. We are often too overwhelm to see that.

"... In the world ye shall have tribulation:

but be of good cheer;

I have overcome the world." 

~ John 16:33  (King James Version)

Eternity

"'For I know the plans I have for you,'

declares the LORD,

'plans to prosper you and not to harm you,

plans to give you hope and a future.'"

~ Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

If God had a plan for all and time was in His hands,

the Present to us is the present,

but our present would be Heaven's Past.

So as stars are just light that traveled a long period of time,

we are living in what we called our present,

in which our present may have already past.

Covetousness

"Tom has just got this Be-au-ti-ful house.Why can't we have something that?

Why can't you be be like Mary? She is such a gem. Dick is so fortunate.

Harry and Susie are such great workers. Why don't I have workers like that?

Wow, Lucy! Your convertible is Fan-tas-tic!

I wish I was half as smart as you."

Sounds familiar? Ever heard someone saying those?

That is probably because it has been around since the fall of Adam, the first man.

Hence a Higher Being has to intervene on earthly matters, sending texts from heaven

That day, Mosses was carrying the latest tablet PC from Apple.

It was called, iStone.

It was on this iStone Tablet,

God Whatsapp Mosses His Instructions,

at Mount Sinai.

Perhaps the 3G reception there was better.

"Thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's house, 

thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's wife, 

nor his manservant, 

nor his maidservant, 

nor his ox, 

nor his ass, 

nor any thing that is thy neighbour's." 

~ Ten Commandments

One of those days...

One of those days...

.... you just feel out of place...

Perhaps one day...

For many years, I was chasing after a lifestyle. I wanted a house, a house with a big garden. A house filled with warmth, and love. A house that potrays what was within.

I wanted a car. A car that brings me places. A car that shows my status. A car that brings me comfort.

I wanted relationship with people. With people who wanted the same things that I seek.

I wanted money. Money to do the things I desire so greatly. Money to sustain my lifestyle that I so crave.

I wanted a career. A career that takes me to places. Places that I have not ventured into. A career that motivates me. A career that gives me my worth.

I have tried for so many years to position myself from where I am, to where I want myself to be. The many disappointments and upteem failures just keep on maintaining my ego from inflating.

But you see. I never gave up. I never really ever gave up on that dream. No matter how many times, or how hard my dream was crushed. It just keeps coming back.

Perhaps one day, I may learn when to let go. Perhaps one day, I may learn the will of my life. Perhaps one day. Perhaps one day...

Incapacitated

It is a strange feeling when you feel sad. It felt as though time has stopped.

I felt incapacitated, stripped away from my rights. Perhaps that was how it was like on the cross.

There is a struggle within me. One that wants to break free, and the other who wants to submit.

Should I keep fighting? Or should I let go and succumb?

I am tired... Very very tired... Wither by the elements of life.

Perhaps it is time to say "Not my will, but yours be done..."

Random Thoughts..

I have not posted anything for a long time. It is not because I am busy. It is because I didn't want to. Hmm...

Perhaps when you nearing 30, something within you starts to change. Or perhaps people around you give you so much pressure.

Somedays, I wish I was living in an English country, or where the spirit of freedom allows you some space. I am almost suffocated by Asian's tradition, culture, and Asian's standard.

Don't get me wrong. I am not saying that culture and tradition is redundant. I am saying perhaps one needs a mature standard in a developed society.

Why are we bound to culture and tradition and what's the norm anyway? Who set the standard?

Perhaps people just can't escape having the need of acceptance...