Sometimes it is already hard to make ends meet at the darkest moment of your life. When you began to realise that you need help. You start to look to your left and right, you realise, gosh! Those who used to be there ain't there anymore. You needed help but there isn't any. You needed reinforcement, but they are not going to come. You realised you need to rely on yourself but you are already at your limits.
It is sad to know that, your so called friends are not people who stand by thick and thin with you. The people around you are not so helpful as you are to them. Whatever you have sown into their life, you are not going to reap anything back.
But that is all ok... No help? Rely on yourself then. You can't go asking for help and expecting help to come all the time...
But then you realised, the people you have trusted, the person you have called a friend or family began to judge you. Say things like, you get yourself into shit because you are lazy, you can't be bothered. You are useless, you are a slacker.
How many of Job's friends are there in life?
Life itself is already unfair. Bad things do happen to good people. Even though they don't deserve it. Scorners laughing at your plight, accusing you of things you have not done.
This world indeed is broken. So broken there is no love. Where there is no love, there is no God. And in a Godless town, people turn to their talents and ablities and their success as god. They pride their success. They king them as king. Worship them as god.
A Godless world is cold. People claimed that they have god, yet they live a godless life. People claimed to love, but they love only when their pastors are watching. People claimed to care, but they care only when there is a need to care. Isn't it all too late?
People do things because they are rewarded by them... Yet God's eyes are roaming across the earth looking for one whose heart is wholely after the truth.
Oh God of heaven, did You hear my cry? Will You take me out from my devours' hand? Will You deliver me from my circumstances? Will You be true to me as I am to You?
Oh God my Lord, are You there for me when I need You? Will You be there with me in the valley? Will You walk with me as I walk with You?
Apart from You, I alone am nothing. I solely needed You, in everything I do. I needed You every moment of my life. Will You never depart from me, but keep me close to You. Oh God, there is nothing more than being in Your arms, safe and sound.
Leave me not my God, for there is nothing I have left but You. I hang on to the cross looking up to see You. Oh let Your mighty hands pick me up once again.
God, I NEED YOU!!!
